I am still in shock that October is already here and I haven't done more than have my resolutions for this 2014. At the end of last year, like many of us, I was looking forward to doing all this things that I had put on paper. 2014 began and amidst all the family gatherings (in Puerto Rico we have probably the longest Christmas Season in the world. We have the Xmas Spirit since late October lasting until almost the end of January with Las fiestas de la Calle San Sebastian), February snuck up on me and the question dawned on me "Where do I start?"
My list was not very long but it had enough resolutions to keep me busy for the whole year. The goal was to do one per month, it didn't happen. I wrote some of my resolutions in the January 1 post My Hopes for 2014. Again, it didn't happen. I think it has to do with the fact that I nor anyone else was holding me accountable for my resolutions. I thought writing them online would, but it didn't. So what is different now???
Well now I just realized that there are only 88 days left for me to achieve most of them. I am at a point in my life where I have come to realize that I have to live for myself and do for myself. No one will do it for me and at 30 years old I don't like my life very much. So it is either change the way I see my life and make it better or go to Capestrano because I'm depressed. Guess which one I opted for, of course the first one. I know it will not be easy but it is cheaper and I have to do it for myself. Not expecting any recognition other than my own.
Weight loss: Evidently I am not going to lose all the weight I want to lose. But I can finally start. Last time I had weighed myself over a year ago I was at 257 pounds, and at 5' 8'' that makes me obese. Later today I will go to the mall to weigh myself. Later today if not tomorrow I will upload the pictures and the evidence of the weight. and I will do a weekly weigh-in so you can see my progress.
Financially: I have depended financially on my partner for years and it has been very tough. I don't know if you can relate but in my experience since it was not my money I had no voice on how to spend it. Therefore priorities in the house were very different. That will definitely change. I will begin my baking business, starting small at home and tutoring both English and Spanish at home, and all sorts of odd jobs that will let me continue to be with my son full time and be on my way to be independent... again.
Family: I will make an effort to spend more quality time with my son. And collaborate more with his school. My plan is to homeschool him when he goes to kindergarten. We'll see. For now I want to be the mom that is always there and teachers can count on most of the time. Pretty soon it will be my son and I. We are going to be moving in with my sister for a while, let's see how that goes. I'll let you know.
School: I will look for small courses or workshops of Pastry as to refresh my knowledge and keep up to date with new decoration techniques. I would love to be a Pastry teacher but for kids. I already did a Pastry workshop for Head Start. Who knows where that'll lead.
Faith: This whole separation situation, having a kids with special needs and just every day can be very stressful. I always rely on God for support, but I am still in diapers when it comes to having faith. I always worry and stress over the little things. I am micromanager. So I want to keep growing in this area. I want to discover my purpose, because I know He has one for me.
This are the biggest 5 areas in my resolutions list for 2014. Starting today steps will be taken to achieve them. there are a couple other areas in my life that I have resolutions for. And I'll tackle each and everyone of them in the remaining 88 days. I will post progress notes on them along the way. Until next time.
Make it a great day,